Today was really productive!

I hung out with rydiafantasy after I finished work. :D After grabbing dinner at Noodles, we hit a few places to find some holiday gifts. I got my sister one of the things I was hoping to get her, so I can almost cross her off my list.

I've also been busy packing. My room is completely packed, save my clothes and alarm clock... things like that. Now I need to start on the living room, which I'm not looking forward to.

I'm planning on seeing The Princess and the Frog tomorrow, which I'm excited for. :D I've been waiting months for it to come out. Then on Saturday I'm taking Doodles to the vet, finishing up holiday shopping (hopefully) and seeing Fug's stupid band play. On Sunday is the Solstice party.

I don't know how my weekends keep getting so busy.

So, I went and took Doodles to the vet today. She needed to have a vaccination, a general exam and a fecal test. She seems to be fine for the most part, but she does have an eye AND ear(s) infection. Poor baby. It's bad enough having one; I can't imagine having an infection in both my ears and my eye at the same time. Giving her the medicine for this is incredibly painful for all parties involved, and she's totally mad at both me and hyper_amychao right now. xD

Because of the extra medication and stuff, the bill for her visit ended up being almost $160. And I have to take her back in two weeks so they can make sure she's doing okay. :| Having a pet isn't cheap, man.

Speaking of money, I was productive and did more of my holiday shopping! I finished up my mother, Ana, and Nic, and started on Gerardo. So, that just leaves him, my dad, my sister, Shannon, Joe, Kira, and my Secret Santa to shop for. :D I'm definitely proud of myself. We'll see how much money I have left after I finish everything, though.

Oh, that reminds me! sorcererhuntres, I went ahead and authorized the transfer yesterday, I think... either yesterday or Thursday. According to PayPal, I should have the money in there by the 7th. So, I'll transfer it as soon as it shows up, okay? <3

It's been a long day, so I think it's bedtime.

And of course, by my title, I am talking about school. My Art History class wrapped up the lecture portion before the break started, so for the next few days we're watching a documentary called The Rape of Europa. This documentary is about Nazi Germany and how Hitler (who was an artist himself) planned his army invasions around countries that had art he wanted to steal and add to his own collection. I think it's fascinating so far, so I'm looking forward to finishing that up on Thursday. Next Tuesday is review day for our test, and on Thursday is the test itself. After that, I think I'm done with that class!

I've actually really enjoyed this class; much more than I had expected to, anyway. It was nice not having to simply memorize artist names and paintings. We got to talk about the culture and politics and stuff that related to the pieces we were studying. Too bad Art History II isn't like this class.

Well, before we went on break, my paper for Art History was due. Being the procrastinator I am, I wrote it a few hours before the class and just BS-ed my way through it. xD We got our grades back today, and I ended up receiving a 95/100 on the paper. Either I'm a better writer/bullshitter than I thought, or my teacher was just going easy on us. Now I just have to do my paper for Comparative Religions, which is due tomorrow. 8D;

The break itself was nice. It felt good to have a three day work week without me having to leave early and go to school. Thanksgiving was kind of meh... my family's never been good at dinners like that, especially with my sister's "holier than thou" attitude. I think everything would have been much better if she had chosen not to come, but... oh well. It is what it is. xD

It's kind of crazy to think it's December already. Which means... time to move. As much as I hate to move, I'll be glad to get out of this smelly apartment. According to hyper_amychao, the people at Drake Manor did a showing of our apartment this morning without letting either one of us know about it first. She was actually still sleeping, and woke up when the woman doing the showing opened up her door to show off her room. :| While I'm pissed that they didn't even let us know they were doing that, according to our lease they don't need our permission. They can try to contact us, but if that doesn't work... Well. Obviously it's not going to stop them.

I already took one bookcase full of books back over to my parent's house, but I have the rest of my room and the apartment to pack up. Hopefully it won't be too long.

Before I go, if anyone wants a holiday card from me, let me know in the comments! :D I'll get your address from you later.

Alright, time to go work on my paper.

I haven't really updated in a long time. D: So, in case anyone's interested... here you go!

My birthday's come and gone, and it was mostly fun. I had a dinner with my friends on the 6th, since I was going to be in Boulder on my actual birthday. Everyone seemed to have a good time. :D Gerardo, Nic, Shannon, Kira, Jackie and myself ended up staying until Old C's closed because we were having fun talking to each other.

I went to see Regina Spektor with my sister on my birthday, and that was mostly fun. We did get into a fight early on in the night, however, and that made everything after that kind of awkward. It was over the stupidest thing, too, but... oh well.

School-wise. I ended up dropping Astronomy, since I couldn't learn anything from my online class. Which means I'm not graduating this semester. Instead, I'm going to take Meteorology and graduate in the spring (hopefully). Now we're on Thanksgiving break, which will be incredibly welcome.

I got Resident Evil: The Darkside Chronicles on Wednesday, but couldn't start playing it until Thursday night. I'm really happy that they were able to get back a lot of the actors to play their characters again, especially Leon's and Claire's. I mean, Alyson is the only one to have played Claire in English, so it would have been awkward to hear anyone else. I beat it last night, so now I'm going through and trying to find all of the files I missed the first time around.

Supernatural is going to kill me. :| No new episodes until January 21st? Augh! This last one ended so memorably, too. I don't know what I'm going to do if the CW does end up renewing it for a sixth season. Where can they possibly go from what's been going on in season five?

Lady Gaga's "Bad Romance." I can't stop listening to it. :|

Okay, I think that's everything. And have a meme, courtesy of hyper_amychao! :D

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Or is it the other way around? I can't really tell anymore. xD

So, it's been a while since I updated this thing! Halloween came and went without incident, and now we're into November!

October ended with an almost blizzard, Tina is broken again (sob), and November's actually been pretty good so far. We're having summer weather; today was up to about 73 or 75, and tomorrow is supposed to be even warmer. That's good, seeing as how tomorrow is my birthday and I want to have lovely weather to enjoy it in! :D

I went to see Rob Thomas in concert with my dad on the 27th, and I must say I'm very impressed. The guy played nearly two hours straight, and was engaging and funny while he was doing it. I have so much more respect for him and the other bands that played with him.

Speaking of concerts, I'm going down to Boulder tomorrow to see Regina Spektor with my little sister. Hopefully that will be a good show!

All right, time to go do some girly things and get ready for my birthday dinner tonight, and enjoy my second viewing of the episode of Supernatural that was on last night.

Oh man. I am so unbelievably tired. I went to bed at 10:30 last night, had trouble falling asleep, and woke up at 3 a.m. Finally got up at 5 and headed into work at 6:30, where I had a really stressful day. xD Even with that extra hour and a half, with no lunch, I still didn't get everything done that I wanted to. Although, I did finish about six days of retail today, so that was pretty awesome.

Supernatural starts officially next month! I'm very excited for season five, although I'll be down in Denver for NDK when it premieres.

Oh yeah! hyper_amychao and I saw this guy playing the trumpet in his car while driving today. Not only was he a retard, but he was also a douchebag. xD We tried to get a picture of it but we couldn't see the guy clearly in it.

Red vs. Blue is slowly taking over my life again. It's been nice getting back into the fandom (and actually seeing the majority of the series) after so many years of being away from it.

Also, I'm never trusting my dad and anything he says again. Ever.

I hope I don't feel so angry at people before the week is over.

Yay, two posts from me in one day! xD But anyway, the thing I miss most about being a kid is the relationship I had with my sister. When we were younger, we had this really close friendship. We were like partners and confidantes, as well as sisters. Even if we didn't have a lot in common, we still got along incredibly well.

However, as we got older, we just grew apart and now we hardly talk except for major holidays. Things have improved a lot from about three or four years ago, but it's still not fantastic.

Though, it's more of a personal/emotional nature, rather than a physical one. :D

I honestly feel like I was a shitty person during the 3+ years that I was in deep depression, and I'm surprised that my friends who went through that with me are still my friends. I think that the ones that are still with me know how deeply sorry I feel about it, and I think that'll haunt me for the rest of my life. It's something that I've been having to live with (and feel guilty over) ever since I got out of therapy back in September.

It's only now, after over six months of being out of therapy and facing up to my problems, that I realize that now is the time to fix things. I think that having certain people in my life during that difficult time would have helped me immensely, and I'm very sad that they're not a part of my life anymore. But now is the time to make amends, and reach out to them.

So, good job me! I started the ball rolling with two people that I've been missing very dearly. <3 I hope that this will turn out to be a positive thing. I think that this will continue the healing process and journey that I've been on for a long time. Even if the responses I get back aren't positive, at least I know that I can make peace with the fact that I tried to right some of the wrongs I've committed.

And on that note... time to go watch a little bit of Dawn of the Dead!

I went with my parents to visit my sister today in Boulder. I really like her apartment! It's a one room, so it's pretty small. But she's really fixed up the place nicely. It's cute.

I just wish that I didn't feel like such a failure compared to her, now. >_>; Whatevs.

Dear hyper_amychao,
I don't really know how to tell you this, but I dislike you.
I think I realized it when your dog ran amok in your camping car and I saw you sit at my best friend.
I'm sure you're ashamed enough to understand that Extreme Home Makeover sucks .
I'm returning your ring to you, but I'll keep your photo as a memory.
You should also know that I will tell the authorities about a new life as a clone .
Go burn,
jupiterhalo

( The how-to! )

So, in other news, I actually spent a day with my sister! And it was fun. :o I may end up being her date to a wedding... We spent a lot of the day at Centerra, and ended up watching Lars and the Real Girl. SUCH a good movie. Ryan Gosling is so cute~ <3

At Centerra, I bought the Anime Legends collection of Cowboy Bebop (for only $40!) and some books (including World War Z).

And I was really happy! My Aucifer CD came today! *squees* Besides a few weird songs, I'm really impressed with them. <3 It was totally worth the buy, I think.

And yeah... I have all of these memes I took from ebon_wings, but I don't know if I'll post them. xD; I may end up doing it anyway, since I already did half the work.

( Spin the spinner for more! )

With that finished, there is something I need to say (and this is pointed at one specific person, who is not on LJ): fuck you. You, who can't even respect me enough to tell me the truth, let alone tell me yourself. Instead, I need to find out from something else? Thanks. It makes me want to leave this place even more.

So, whee. A lot's been going on lately!

Ummm... my 21st birthday was on the 7th, so I had a fun time drinking seriously. I had about 5 or 6... I've discovered that I don't really like vodka that much. xD But yeah, I could still walk straight, all that... my speech was just a little slurry. So, I guess that I can hold my liquor pretty well.

My parents also left for Mexico on the 11th... so that leaves me with an empty house. Luckily, Shannon's staying over with me so I don't feel lonely. And last night, her, Ana and myself had a sleepover. Awesome times. x3

But the BIGGEST thing that happened today was that Debbie called me this morning. I was tangled up in my sheets so I couldn't get to the phone, and she left me a voicemail telling me to call her. When I did, she offered me the job I applied for! :D So, I officially start at 8 a.m. on the 26th, which still gives me Thanksgiving Break off. I'm so excited! x3

Add a shower and some ice cream to that mix, and it's been a pretty sweet couple of days. <3

All right kids, it's time for an actual update.

( NDK, jobs, and my own private thoughts... )

Oh dear. Oh dear. Oh dear.

This is potentially not good.

Please don't let this be happening...

Wow, it feels like I haven't written in this for a while, even though it's only been about a week or so. xD

Things have been incredibly busy, and they look to be even more so as the weeks go on! Tomorrow, my sister and Shaun graduate from high school. ^_^ *tear* A big moment; I'm happy for you guys!

I also joined a new RP~ xD Oni didn't make me apply for anything, so that made me happy. I HATE strongly dislike applying for characters in different RPs. So now I am Quatre, from "Gundam Wing." :D Which gives me a reason to rewatch the series, since I haven't seen it in such a long time.

Speaking of characters... I think I narrowed down who I want to go as for NDK. Ana and I were talking about that today, and I realized that I had NO IDEA who I was going as. xD But, I think the list is as follows:

~Kapitel Nagi
~Orihime
~Nakano Hiroshi

I'm looking forward to this year's NDK! :D Because I'll get to see the group, and I miss them. A lot. Which is why I've decided to try and go see everyone more often. xD The next Sunday I have off, I'm going to try and make it to Shadowrun... I just need someone to tell me where we meet now. Sometimes I see people at Billy's, sometimes not. But, yeah. I miss everyone, insanely!

...Which brings us to the reason why I'm making this post. Since I have a lot of time to think during work, my thoughts lately have turned to my life. Am I happy? Am I content? Is everything okay? And my answer to those questions are... yes. :D I am happy, and content, for the first time since I was in high school. I really feel like I've turned my way of thinking 360 degrees, back to the way it was when I was 18. Back then, I was happy. I was energetic, fun and a little rebellious. College was a definite wake-up call for me, among other things. But I feel like I'm finally able to let things go. People can kick me (although I would prefer if they didn't xD), but I'll still get back up again. I finally have my confidence back, and I'm definitely starting to realize what the important things are in life.

So, to those I love: thank you so much for loving me back, and giving me courage. It means more to me than ever; and gives me the strength to support and encourage others in return. To those I hurt: I'm sorry for everything that has happened. I know that nothing can change the past, but we can always make a brighter future.

Over this past year (at the very least), it seems like I've withdrawn from a lot of people, only turning to a certain few. Maybe it was fear, or anger, or a mixture of both. But now I feel like I'm finally ready to rejoin the world again, as myself. I have a date on Wednesday, my work buddies and I are getting closer, and I've been reconnecting with people that I initially thought were lost to me.

...So, in other words, I really don't want to be apart from my friends anymore. xD I know it was a very roundabout way of saying it, but my thoughts have run deep these past few weeks.

Life is good.

x0 It is going to be such a relief when I go to Grand Junction in a few weeks. I cannot wait to get away from school and all of this stress people have been placing on me.

So, my parents went up to Cheyenne tonight to check out that car.

... No such luck. According to them, it drove well but already had 150,000 + miles on it. If it was even 2/3 of that, they would have bought it in a heartbeat.

Even though I'm really not surprised, I'm also kind of disappointed. After all, I was hoping to finally have a car back. They're going to keep looking... I hope I get one soon.

And to add insult to injury, they took the PT Cruiser up there. They could have taken the truck, but noooo. They just had to have the PT Cruiser. So they went over to Macy*s, took it from the parking lot, and didn't even have the courtesy to tell me that they had taken it. Even though I was warned that may happen, I still had to call my dad and ask him.

When I did that, he was all "Yeah, we took it. You're going to have to find your own ride home, k thx bai."

Luckily Nicole was willing to give me a ride home. I don't know who I could have gotten one from, otherwise. xD

A late Merry Christmas/Happy Yule/whatever you celebrate to everyone out there! :D

Christmas actually wasn't too bad for me this year. I ended up being the one with the most presents in my family, so that was kind of weird. Some of the big things I got are:

-A new DVD/VCR combo for the basement
-An mp3 player
-A portable DVD player
-Work pants and jeans
-The newest Evanescence CD
-Some random things from my sister (like a Build Your Own Stonehenge kit xD)

After we opened up presents we went and had dinner at my uncle's house, where we got even more gifts. :D I got a lot of money from my relatives, an I.Q. game, and a huge bag of stuff from my grandma. xD I swear, she puts the weirdest things in there (like pot holders and napkins o_o). But all in all, it was really fun.

And I actually drank a little bit of alcohol while I was there. :0 I had a little bit of a wine cooler plus Sprite. It was okay... kind of weird tasting. It made me REALLY tired, though. So I came home at around 6 and crashed until 8:30 or 9:00.

But, yes. Partying with my co-workers tomorrow~! That will be fun. And I think I'm set on gift cards for a while. xD My parents gave me one to Best Buy and one to Barnes and Noble. So, now I have 3 gift cards for the bookstore. <3

So, I hope everyone was safe and had a lot of fun today~! ^_^

So, it's less than a week to Christmas. The countdown begins... *cringes*

I don't think things at Macy*s will be all that busy, though. Luckily, I have almost all of my presents ready, except for a few that I knew I wasn't going to have in time for the holidays. So, I can always give those presents out after the holiday season is over.

So, the solstice party is tomorrow. And as always, I'm considering not going... I kind of feel like there are a few people who don't want me there, so what's the point in showing up? It would be nice to see Billy, Joe and the rest of the guys again, however. So, I don't know. I have to drive Shannon there anyway, so I may stay for a while. But we'll see.

The good thing about tomorrow is that Shannon and I are making soccer ball cookies for Ken's birthday on Saturday. <3 That's going to be a lot of fun, although I still need to buy the icing and sprinkles, as well as find a recipe for sugar cookies. I think that we have one that my great-grandmother passed down or something, so I'll see if I can find it for tomorrow.

Now that break has started, I've been trying to catch up on some movie watching. I've recently gotten into watching "Scrubs;" I even asked for the first season DVD set for Christmas. I went to a movie on the 11th ("The Holiday," with Kate Winslet and Cameron Diaz), which was fun. I haven't seen a movie in theaters since "Saw III." I watched my DVD of "Phantom of the Opera" as well, which was great. I remembered why I had seen it seven times in theaters when it first came out. I also went and rented a few DVDs at Blockbuster: "Superman Returns" and "Dear Frankie." I've been wanting to see "Dear Frankie" for a long time now, and the only rental place that had it was Blockbuster. So, when the DVD was *finally* available, I totally had to get it.

I watched "Superman Returns" first, because it was only a two day rental. It was probably a bad thing starting about one in the morning, since I fell asleep about an hour and a half into the movie. So I missed the ending completely, but from what I saw of it first was really good. Yay for James Marsden; he rocks my socks.

Now I'm in the process of watching "Dear Frankie," which is excellent so far. I'm about half an hour from the end. Gerard Butler's character makes me laugh; he's so awkward at first but then becomes so sweet. <3 The only bad thing about it is because it's a Scottish film, everyone has really thick accents. However, that really helps with the setting and the story. Frankie is a really cute kid. And Emily Mortimer, who plays his mother, also plays Young Sophie in "Howl's Moving Castle."

So, last night I went out to dinner with Jacob. It was still really awkward, especially since I was tired. He kept staring at me throughout dinner, which was very weird. He was also asking me about my dating history, because apparently Charity told him a few things. xD He also really didn't seem to be interested in many things I had to say; for example, I asked him what movies he had seen lately. He told me, and I expected him to ask me in return so we could have a nice talk about them. But he didn't. It still feels really strange with him.

Over break, I plan on writing a lot more. I need to write the following pairings for fanfics:

-Scott x Jean
-Keisuke x Sayuki
-Sayuki x Takumi

I also want to RP a lot more. It seems like Sayuki and Mako are doing a lot; the same with Hiro and Aya. I also need to work on my applications for Knight and Sailor Pluto for nihon_made, as well as finish my application for Laguna for ares_arcanum. Both Mako and Shannon wanted me to join, so I'll give it a shot.

I'll also be working quite a bit. Since my mother is losing her job in January, I want to save up some money so I can at least help pay for some of my education. I also need to start saving up for Fanime, NDK 2007 and a computer. So many things to buy; so little money to buy them with. >_>

Oh yes, it seems like a lot of people have been crabby lately. I wonder why that is...?